Monday, June 23, 2014

One day, by luck or by fate you will find that the loveless days you spent eternity weeping over will be gone, and you will find that your heart will soon be on its way to repair, patching up the scrapes and scratches that covered the way it was— when life was abundant and love was a teasing battle. And when you do, I hope you realize how necessary everything was. The regret, the anguish— all of it. You needed it to happen. You can’t understand happiness without the sadness that accompanies it. They are bound together like day and night, or work and rest, cradling each other like the moon, and the earth.
But it’s not to say we are completely bound to eternal grief. We are still tied together, whether with ropes and knots or by a single thread. We can’t cut the ties if we wanted to but we still try to thin them out, maybe until they are just slim sheets of infinity.
So, quit moping. Wipe your eyes, and try to see it clearer now. The somber days will still come, if not in minutes then maybe months. How horrible it can be, is all up to you. As long as your heart beats, as long as your legs can run or your fingers can type you will always be here, alive—living. The nights will still come and the sun will still shine and the planets will still rotate.
And look, so will you.

Monday, October 14, 2013

I don't think these kinds of things ever truly disappear for good. You don't ever drive through the smoke towards infinity like the movies show, and even though the cloudy skies are behind you, you have to realize that there will always be another batch ahead. It may not be for another few miles, kilometers maybe, but they will eventually show up.

These feelings come in waves, and sometimes they come too large. I'm learning that in my life, there is no such thing as a forever. So savor the greatness. Savor the little things in life that allow you to enjoy it, even if they are minuscule. Savor love, in all of its forms, wholesome or not. 

Know that even though a storm could show up at any moment a clear sky will always follow. Maybe knowing this, feeling guilty will be a little less of a feeling. Maybe one that isn't a feeling at all. 

Tuesday, July 23, 2013

2013

I think I'm going to start using my blogspot again. And maybe it's just the sudden rush of nostalgia but I somewhat miss talking about my life (the little of it), although I never wrote much on here as opposed to my Tumblr.

So...
Yeah.

I'm not sure where to begin.

My last post was Aug 23rd, 2010. The summer before senior year of high school (also the birthday of my old buddy Susan whom I no longer speak to). I was 17 years young and
a lot of stuff has happened since then.
Senior year of high school flew by, and as enjoyable as the thought of finally leaving that wretched place was, I kind of miss it.

Well
Mostly how easy it was. College is a fucking brainkiller.

I applied to VCU and GMU (and for some reason ODU even though I had no intention of going there) and I ended up going to VCU. I figured I needed to get away from the house and hopefully grow up a bit.

God.

I hated my first year so much. It's hard when you take an introvert and put him/her in a new environment where you're forced to talk to people and make friends and I know that's supposed to be good for you but damn that was so freaking annoying.

But I'm happy it happened. It's nice having actual friends who genuinely care about you. I guess it's nice to have people genuinely care in general. I didn't really do much my first year which led to a very exciting and bumpy second year, because I fucked up this year's first semester trying to makeup for what I missed the year before. I mean a 3.0 GPA wasn't that bad but I mean I really needed/need to raise it. So I did well the second semester and here I am now.

As cliché as it sounds you really do find yourself in college. I've learned so much about myself these past two years. I never realized how much I enjoyed creative writing, though I'd never want to pursue a profession in it. It's weird. I really enjoy my life right now, but at the same time my heart yearns to travel elsewhere. Like farther than just the 1 hr and 30 minutes away from home. I wish I had applied for a UC. Or maybe a school in NYC.

Anyways, that's pretty much it. I'm not really sure what else to talk about.

I dunno.

Wow this sounds super gay.

I hope I keep up with this.

Tuesday, August 24, 2010

oh jeeze...

haha, forgot about this.
when i look back at my posts...i feel stupid haha.

Friday, January 1, 2010

FIRST POST OF 2010 YEAH!

FIRST POST OF 2010! :D!!!!!!!!!!!!


and first edit LOL

Friday, November 6, 2009

asdfasdfas

i forgot what this was for asdfsadfasdf

Thursday, August 6, 2009

tomorrow...(today)

will be a very important day for me...I'M GOING TO TAKE MY PERMIT TEST
i hope i pass :[
okay bye

Wednesday, July 22, 2009

1:26 a.m with a bowl of coco puffs and nothing to do

there's never a bad time to have cereal
anywayyyyzzzzzzzz i haven't updated in a long time so yeah

summer started about a month ago
i've enjoyed sooooo much sleep and food, it's like heaven hahaha
oh and i came across this picture i thought was cool
(lol, i said wait hold on out loud)

okay well i can't find it now, but it was really cool
....okay well i'm going to see of george lopez is on

bye whoever! (:

Monday, June 15, 2009

graduation...

so today i went to the senior class of 09's graduation, of course, not to graduate, but to sing the star spangled banner with the school choir, joined by the symphonic band

so yeah, i don't really know many seniors, except a few and i'll miss them (: but yeah that's not the point

at first, since there's only 2 more days of school left (3 officially but basically 2 since 3rd day is optional.....i'm making it look like someone else is reading this) i was all "yes! no more school! time to sit at my computer all day!", but after today, i sorta felt like a part of me is still going to stay at annandale..........................and yeah that does sound corny....whoever's reading this, don't think i'm a werid/sensitive person please LOL

anyways, some of my old teachers said hi to me and yeah
i guess this was just a premonition for MY graduation.


.......and i haven't updated in awhile, NOT THAT ANYONE CARES. :)
...........okay bye, i'll post another blog in a few months LOL, i'm actually trying to keep up with this though!

okay, peaaaaaace.

Sunday, May 17, 2009

aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa

TOTALYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY FORGOT ABOUT THIS

okay well i am going through a korean music phase thingie blah
and yeaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah

.........SOL's are starting this week, ahh!
i have my algebra 2 one on thursday
i don't like my algebra class at ALL. aslk;dfjasl;dkfja
actually i dont like any class at all hahaaa
i think the teacher hates me though
......and yeah =[


okay well i'm getting ready for bed bAAAAAAAI. even though no one is looooooking at this :P



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^LOL THATS MEAN

Tuesday, March 3, 2009

wall-e

my friend needs 4000 dollars for this thing at georgetown
i feel bad because she really wanted it and she wrote an essay worth 20 pages
which i think is alot LOL shes only a sophomore
MY BEST BUDDY!<3

anwyays yeah...i just thought i should update

okay well ima bounceeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.
peace.

Friday, February 20, 2009

waaait up!!

Now Listening To: We Used to Vacation
Artist: Cold War Kids

yeah well im downloading some songs now
not sure what to do so i thought i would write a blog..


so today i found out my english teacher got his wife pregnant
i think its sorta werid cause i always thought my english teacher was gay hahahaha.
oh well, i guess looks...and actions can be decieving?

and yeah the rest of my day went by pretty fast
i always seem to get a little dozy at the same time (8 A.M) in history class
its sort of annoying because thats like, in the smack dab middle of the class so my teacher teaches important(?) things

and i think i made one of my friends mad
im pretty sure i didnt do anything wrong
she just didnt seem to want to talk at all today, maybe shes down :(

okay well blahblahblah, yadayadayada, peace.

Monday, February 9, 2009

i heard its a big year

i wish everything was like 7th grade again
everything was new and different
everyone was friends, nobody knew what an enemy meant

i wish i could be in 7th grade one more time

Monday, January 26, 2009

year of the ox

so yeah, today i got in touch with the asian side of my life
today my dad took me to my cousins house, and there was a traditional dinner(i think)
since i was the only person around my age, (the closest person to my age was like...8 or 9 years old? hahahaaaaaa.) i ate a bowl of rice and who knows what and went downstairs to watch WALL-E. with the litteluns
i freakin love that movie<3

but anyways, i left early and went home to my dads house and rested for an hour
we went to this buddhist temple close by, which was really warm and welcoming
the head monk there was so nice and bright and my dad and i conversed with the monk
he said i spoke good vietnamese(WHAT A LIE)
i said happy new year
my dad and him talked about whatever, i wasnt really paying attention
and i got a dollar and left!

i just took a picture with my dad about 5 minutes ago
and now im about to eat this dessert thing that taste bad but im going to eat it anyways
because im such a badass, :D

anyways unil then,
peaceeeeeeee.


i noticed that when i tell a story, its not really interesting
its like:

-i ate a bowl of rice
-i put soysauce in it
-i drank water


you know? haha okay not like anyones reading this

Friday, January 23, 2009

is it good?

so heres what my grades are right now...some of them im not sure though

world history2 - B
gym - A, easy class! LOL
chemistry - C+ or B, pretty sure its a B though
spanish - a C :(
yearbook - an A, B or C, really unsure about this
english - B
algebra - C
chorus - A or B, depending on if i go to a choral concert this weekend and turn in a report by mondat

so yeah, i calculated it, and if i get an A in yearbook and chorus, i can get at LEAST a 3.0 GPA
which is good right? do colleges accept 3.0s? thats a B, i think its good!
im pretty sure its good....
is it good?

yeah anyways, so i really plan on getting better grades
for goodness sake, im asian!
but im not smart


....i faked a fall today and now i have a hurt knee

Thursday, January 22, 2009

the world is against me

i forgot to do a P.E paper!
tomorrow is the last day of the quarter!
i'm procrastinating!
i have to write a copy by tomorrow!
i have to interview 20 people in chorus, 10 boys and 10 girls by C lunch!

the world is against me!
...i need a job.

Saturday, January 17, 2009

people are like slinkies

not really good for much, but brings a smile when pushed down the stairs

Thursday, January 1, 2009

happy new year.

yeah i forgot to update... LOL
anyways its a new year, and im spending this year at my dad's house
my step mom and he are sick so they went to bed like...2 hours ago haha
so i was downstairs watching fox five and before i knew it, it was january 1st, 2009.
im sort of thinking right now, and i don't have that many resolutions

well, i have the ol' "get better grades" but really, i have no resolutions
i guess this year will be the same as the previous years
....not that im trying to put down a sad mood or anything, i mean im happy its a new year!

maybe this year we can find a cure to cancer and whatnotz.

anyways, happy new year, and may the best be with you, whoever you are.

Thursday, December 25, 2008

the blog of the blogs

so yeah....i got a blog!
i don't know what to write about, cause i don't really have a life at all, LOL.
so i'll tell whoever happens to come across my blog a little more about me


im like...15 ( AND A HALF! ) years old right now
im a nice person, really insecure, but im working on it haha
an A-B student, except for spanish cause thats super hard...
i look at the positive sides of things, im not a negative person
i think i type fast, but thats what everyone else says
and uh........yeah i like soup and i sing, not well even though i am in my school's choir

......ALRIGHT WELL I'LL TRY TO REMEMBER TO WRITE A BLOG.
until then you can uh......well i don't know, go do somthing productive and meaningful
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